and then Happily Ever After i guess

All that remains at this late hour is the sweaty bare back of a bay stallion, beaten by the insensitive rider, the frightened and fat man, middle-aged but still held in the sway of childhood terrors  who--clutching all of that muscle and power between his thighs--has imagined that control can be channeled by anger and that that anger is an appropriate echo of the fears that we cannot name, an unjustly invented fera ferida that he cannot tame…

Distressed leather.

This couch they bought for their first apartment thirteen years on.  And it had--quite literally upon delivery--been burdened by memory.  And memory from those early days was, as must be the case for many nascent relationships, seeded with too much jealousy, too great a fear of the inevitable space between bodies, and thus uncomfortable with honesty only slightly less than it is uncomfortable with dishonesty.  Colorful, contentious, confusing and passionate, young lovers believe profoundly in their love, even (or perhaps especially) when they are hating each other.  The magic of that time, in the moment, is made of anxieties and frustrations that do not preclude enchantment.  However, the |make room for the magic of it all seem sinister, dark.


finally, after coalescing out of the dark eternities that surrounded them, after a cooling off period, a cooling down, become the stuff of memory.  The anti-matter,  and that which matters most of all, As such, this would be one of those apocryphal talesThe repeated the crafted Quite  had come burdened by memory
Distressed leather.

The elder of the two men was already approaching forty when they first met.  There was without question something substantial in the perspective of a thirty seven year old and that of a young man just turned twenty-nine.  Inside his head, unspoken, the elder to himself would consider his discrepancy as somethingdt dtwwo men was already approaching forty when they met,  and the laugh lines around his eyes already formed that spider's web that would entangle such younger men